You silly,
silly girl
You think
you've survived so long
survival shouldn't have to hurt anymore.
Always keep it in your consciousness
that tide turns,
the second hand moves,
the natural state adheres that the only constant is change.
So do not be too certain,
someone will stay
just because they said they'd stay.
Do not be too certain,
someone loves you
just because they say they love you.
I thought too that I'd stay but I turn to leave.
For a new beginning
letting go is a necessary component.
She has tattooed herself unto your skin
Her cells run through you
the way your blood pulses through her heart
Her touch has trespassed the boundaries I so carefully built around us
bulldozed through the shards I so mindlessly encased ourselves in
The night I was not there,
her body
fucking yours
has eternally ripped apart two pieces of already creased paper.
her body
fucking yours
has eternally ripped apart two pieces of already creased paper.
We can never start on a blank slate again
It's not that you would want it either
But I thought I would make it clear:
Her being travels through your very veins now
her presence forever felt in every corner of your room
the light we once shared is swallowed by the fates
we no longer have it in us,
we no longer can walk this blueprint.
I would want to come to face her
castigate:
whataslutwhatawhorewhatahoewhatabitch
all the names I can possibly muster
because a female do not behave like this
because a dignified female do not say things like:
"I dont care about your existing girlfriend
(I'm just gonna fuck you anyway)"
because I'm not afraid
even if you're 20
or 30
or a fucking 100 years old.
But i know that would be to swoop to a lower level.
My parents never taught me that.
I never taught myself that.
So here's to our demise,
spoken aloud unlike the day you placed this wrath unto me.
I am forgiving and letting go not because I approve of what has befallen us so cruelly.
I am forgiving so that I can forgive myself and set myself free.
This house of anger and it's betrayed henchmen do not have room for me
anymore.
anymore.
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"Pentagram leather harness" + "Raven statement necklace" in collaboration with @hurlaxle on Instagram. More visuals coming up on Instagram and the blog on more of their harnesses and chokers in the next 2 weeks.
Check them out on Carousell @hurl for more carefully constructed pieces as well!
www.carousell.com/hurl
Chris x
"Pentagram leather harness" + "Raven statement necklace" in collaboration with @hurlaxle on Instagram. More visuals coming up on Instagram and the blog on more of their harnesses and chokers in the next 2 weeks.
Check them out on Carousell @hurl for more carefully constructed pieces as well!
www.carousell.com/hurl
Chris x
