Saturday, 26 December 2020

an update of where i am

 hi.

it's been ages since i penned. 

not so much because there hasn't been many things happening lately, in fact, more things have happened since the time i stopped writing - than the first half of my life put together. 

the past 5 years of my life has been the most earth shattering.

in fact, the past year itself has been one that has shaken, turned me upside down, inside out, and re-aligned me - multiple times, way too many to count.

covid-19 has taught me that everything is ephemeral;

that love does not necessarily dwindle with distance;

that giving myself a break does not indicate a weakness in my being. 

it has taken me many years to forge a path for myself,

many years more to convince myself that i am mapping out the right blueprint.

despite my shortcomings, 

i strive everyday to live a life absent of regrets, 

a purpose fulfilling enough for my endless yearnings. 

am i afraid?

yes i am, more than i would ever show.

am i determined?

yes i am, too.